Train Wreck

I want to write but it hurts too much and I slow down.
My engine sputters and my breathe slows.
the wheels screech and my lips part.
a sound

a piercing sound like no other
a deafening sound which fills my ears like cotton

burning my mind, like the fire sparking at the wheels

the weight
the weight tips me over
and the metal hub crashes
covering the terrible sound of sirens wailing in the distance

the rumble of the earth, the beating of my heart
it causes a great catastrophe
slowing
slowing
stopping.
done.

it is over. She is gone. I am dead.
They are too late. The damage is done.

We created a train wreck.


Poetry by Sunshine. Check out my page for more writings!

Without You.

There are so many words on the tip of my tongue,
burning, pushing, crying to get out.
I find some spill over the edge of my lips, but it is never enough. Never enough to satisfy the need of communication.
There is so much to be said, with so many things I wish to clarify.

There is an aching desire to spill my thoughts and have my feelings gazed upon.
Yet if I were given the opportunity to speak again, I would be at loss of what to relay.

For these words come in many forms.

What would I speak of? Where would I speak from?
The sharp edges of the broken pieces of my heart?
Or perhaps the softness of my lips as I remember yours?
It may be from the tenderness of my touch as I think of your skin against mine.
These words may also overflow from my eyes in the form of tears as I remember the betrayal of those I loved most.

How will I choose to speak my feelings, given the opportunity?

Just as a bag bursts at the seams when too full, so do my lips as they part and the words come tumbling out,
too many rumbling inside of me to ignore.

In a case like this, I would have one wish.
Not to speak eloquently.
Not profess my undying love.
Not to announce my pain.

No.

My wish would be for you to understand the mess I am portraying.

My wish would be for my words to match my feelings and actions so that you may understand how I am feeling.

My wish would be for you to realize how I am living.
Without you.

Poetry by Sunshine.

All credit of artwork goes to original owner.

Artwork belongs to Instagram user @arthiyya

if you miss me… look at the moon

if you miss me

look at the moon and know that the face you see in it is my reflection staring into the sky

if you miss me

look at the moon and know that the light it shines is how much brighter my life is with you in it

if you miss me

look at the moon and remember all the memories we had under it

The Overflowing Journal, Poetry

Photo and Poetry by Sunshine ☀️

suppressed emotion

This abrupt feeling of hatred and hurt that grows like a beast inside my belly and suffocates like mold on my heart… where is it coming from

Why do I feel the clasp of suppressed emotion around my soul, as though one is in distress and clenched his fist around me

How does this sudden change inside of me grow to become my personality

What is that horrible stimulant that makes me feel oppressed and dark

For years I have been fighting this battle with myself.. this battle of having a third hand Continue reading suppressed emotion

when i write

i find myself writing
at times when my heart is bleeding
at times when my tears are flowing
at times when my hands are shaking
                when my bones are aching
                when the world is spinning
                        and the sky is falling
i find myself writing
                when my fingers shiver
                        and my lips quiver
i find myself writing
                when my pain is immense
                        and my jaw is tense
i find myself writing
                when i have been hurt
at times when i wish to return to dirt.
11/12/2018
Poetry by Sunshine

Please Note: all writing belongs to me. The photo was taken off the internet; all credit goes to original owner.

do not misunderstand

Please do not misunderstand me.

I am simply hurt that you
fell for the antics of a child
when you have a strong and beautiful woman
by your side.

Poetry by Sunshine.

Art does not belong to me, all credit goes to original owner.